We had planned to go on an island adventure today.
We were going to hire one of the longtail boatmen on the beach across from our hotel. We would pay 1000 baht for a morning trip to James Bond Island, where the 1974 film ‘The Man with the Golden Gun’ was filmed.
Formerly known as Kho Phing Kan, the island is about 30 minutes by longtail boat from Rawai beach, where we are staying. We would have left in the morning and come home around lunch. The island has a restaurant and a beach. We bought Evey a lifejacket for this type of occasion.
I was going to have fodder for this blog. Fantastic photos of the limestone deposits, gorgeous beach, and glorious views of the sea.
Except, I woke up this morning and decided this particular adventure was not for us. I couldn’t help thinking about why we needed that lifejacket. The water is choppy. The waves get big. And sometimes, I’m sure, boats capsize or sink. It’s rare, I’m also sure. But that’s why they have the lifejackets. So I couldn’t help imagining what it would be like if this rare thing happened with my baby on board. We would survive the wait for an alternate boat, but she would surely drown under the waves. She is just simply too little. I would never forgive myself. It may sound overly dramatic, but I just couldn’t put this thought aside.
My mommy brain working in overdrive. But it’s the ‘what if’ with an outcme I can’t live with.
So today we stayed inland and we didn’t have an island adventure. And I’m ok with that.